Tuesday, March 30, 2010

Love will Get us Through....

Words do not come easy for me… I should rephrase that… words do not come easily to me when I write… they come very easily to me when I speak… now I can see my husband shaking his head in agreement! For so many bloggers out there, words seem to come easy… now I do not actually know that they are faster at writing than I am but for me it feels so slow. I write then erase and reread and try to rephrase what I am trying to say. Even when I write in cards I just cannot seem to always find the words to convey what I am feeling. My friend Trish always writes such great cards. I even bought a little book one time of things to write inside of cards!!

For me art has been a much easier way for me to speak. Ideas just come into my head… I imagine visual images and colors as others imagine words.

I started this piece a long time ago and I had an idea of how I wanted it to look. I knew I wanted it to be about love… but then it sat for awhile…

Recently, there has been some bad news for my friends on the MWC blog…Susan with a reoccurrence… Sarah with a metastasis… SO much love was shown to them on the MWC blog, their own blogs, Facebook, Twitter and I am sure in person… Much love and support was also shown to me these past few weeks while I had my MRI and a Sigmoidoscopy.

I finally felt the need to complete this piece….
Sure we need doctors and medicine, YES we definitely need research and a cure, but we also need love… because love will get us through…

cross posted at www.motherswithcancer.com

Thursday, March 25, 2010

Their Back.....

Every year around this time they return... to this tree... on Balboa Island.....

The Blue Herons come back to build their nests and have their young.....

Usually not just one nest but many huge nests. As the Spring progresses you will see more activity... and more poop. You take a chance when you walk under this tree...


Just another reason why I LOVE this special place.....

Monday, March 22, 2010

The elusive Bobcat...

Finally after 10 months of living in our new neighborhood I have seen the elusive Bobcat. We hear the coyotes, so I know they exist. My husband saw a "really large cat" one night on his walk and then figured out it must have been a Bobcat. When I checked with my neighbor she said "yes, in fact I have seen it walk right up our street."

So at dusk we always go out with Mario or have him on a leash as he may be a nice little snack for our "really large cat". A couple of months ago I saw some footprints on our front side walk... then a few weeks ago when we got home for our vacation there was a message from our neighbor letting me know that the Bobcat had just walked from their yard into ours.

This morning on my way home from dropping my son at school I saw him. Luckily I usually always have my point and shoot camera. I stopped in the middle of the road and quickly got out the camera. I was so excited... I tried to get a few shots. He did look right at me with his beautiful face, but I did not get that shot... next time....


I guess he decided he wanted to visit this home and walked right on through the gate!!!

Thursday, March 18, 2010

"Beautifully Clear and Negative"

Yes.... those were the wonderful words that I heard this morning... My breast MRI was " beautifully clear and NEGATIVE"... once you have heard "you have breast cancer" you live on pins and needles whenever you have the yearly scans until you hear the results...

I am so thankful that today is a clear day...

For all of you that were keeping me in their prayers...please keep two of my Motherswithcancer friends, Sarah and Susan in your hearts and prayers as their news has not been good. Sarah will start chemo tomorrow for her second bout with cancer and Susan is waiting to hear what is in store for her.

Damn this cancer... we need a cure....

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

March 16th

Nineteen years ago today my Dad passed away in his sleep. We had a very interesting relationship, but near his end years we had kind of come to terms with each other. I understood him a bit more and I think he began to understand me. He even told me that it was his girls' that had helped him in the end. Now this was no small comment from a guy like him. That same day my niece turned 4. So as sad as I was in the morning I had to put on a happy face for her party that evening.

Today I sent my niece a Happy 23rd Birthday text (as we now live 2500 miles apart)… (Well I was not able to do that 19 years ago). I took the kids to school and then my husband drove me to my wonderful Breast Surgeon for my yearly breast MRI. Last year I had a reaction to the contrast dye so this year I took some Benadryl before. Other than insurance issues (don’t get me started on that topic) the MRI went on without a hitch. I am supposed to wait up to 72 hours for the results… the hardest part of the whole thing. On the way out I saw my doctor and she tried to go and read the results so I would not have to wait, but the machine was not done processing everything yet. I am not expecting any bad results, but you kind of hold your breath until you actually hear the news.

During my test I received a voicemail… when I checked it; it was my son’s school AGAIN. The nurse’s office. He spends a lot of time in the nurse’s office. They know him and they work with him, unlike his teacher that should not be a teacher. (I won’t get started on that topic either). Apparently a bug, no a bee stung him in his eye. He packed up all of his stuff and told them to call my cell, that he was in pain and had to go home! They are so good in the nurse’s office. They gave him some ice, and tried to calm him down and sent him back to class. My guess is Math was coming after recess and he hates Math!!! We chuckled a bit about the bug… no the bee and how he came in all packed up and ready to go. I said we have to give him an A for creativity in the excuse department!

When I came home I tried to rest for a bit in the sun… yes it is really nice and warm today and finally feels like California again, but the Dog was ready to go back inside so no rest for me.

So I came over to my studio and my computer to get some work done. I just received some good news… two pieces of my work have been selected by Cloth, Paper, Scissors as finalists in their Second Annual 2011 Calendar Contest. This year’s theme is “Make it Pretty!” The winners will be announced in May! I cannot show you the two pieces that I submitted, but I will show you my piece from the 2010 calendar again!!


So while I enjoy this moment, I wait for the call from Dr. Police. I hope she does not get too busy and forget to review my MRI. Good results from Dr. Police would just be the best news….

Monday, March 15, 2010

My First Check....

I was thrilled that Jana Holstein selected one of my pieces for the second edition of Somerset Apprentice that I wrote about here… In her email she asked me to write the accompanying article and she also mentioned that I would be compensated… I received my complimentary copy of the magazine in the mail… which made me giddy as a school girl….

But then a few days later this arrived….
My first magazine article compensation check….

I think I will spend it on ….. more art supplies….

Because every artist knows you can never have enough art supplies….

Monday, March 8, 2010

Oscar Viewing Dinner and After Party....

We were supposed to attend the Oscars this year… but at the last minute there was a change in plans… Instead we were treated as VIP’s at the 11th Annual Awards Celebration and Awards Viewing Dinner for Children Uniting Nations. The event was held at the Beverly Hilton.

Here are a few photos from the event:



Hair and Make-up complete... Thank you Sean...If anyone needs a great hairstylist in the SoCal area contact me....















The Hubby and MB ready to go to Hollywood....




My first Red Carpet experience... so surreal...


























The VIP swag lounge.....






Had to get a pic of the candy table for 'N'...


                                I can now save so much time when I buy flowers... just leave the twist tie on and           throw them in a vase.....









Did you watch Fame in the 80's? Remember Nia Peeples? This is Nia and her hubby....they both were so nice....





Yummy dessert.... can't forget to show this one... it is the most important part of the meal....







Elliot Yamin entertained us.....


















We also met Nichelle Nichols... of Star Trek fame.... We had seen her in November at the opening of Star Trek on Catalina Island. She was right behind us on the red carpet. She is so sweet and has now proclaimed herself Lou's Aunt!!!





We had  great time... No it was not the Oscar's.... but there is always next year!!!

Monday, March 1, 2010

Honored and Happy...

I cannot believe it is already March. I have so much I want to do and I feel like I just can never catch up. As much as I feel I am not accomplishing things, I have to stop and remind myself that I am creating my new artistic life. I am moving away from interior design and towards fine art and mixed media. I also have to realize that I am a survivor now… that changes everything. When I think about all that I did before and I have to stop and come to terms with the fact that if I want to stay healthy I have to change my way of life… forever….

When I stop to think of the amount of things I used to accomplish and check off my to do list daily I get a bit down… Then I ask myself how I did it? Then I answer myself… I was always running on empty. That way of life caught up with me a few years ago. As I felt better, I thought that I could return to my output levels, but I just cannot do it. Sometimes I try and then my body quickly reminds me of my limits…

I will probably always have this little battle with myself… it is what I do…but then I remind myself to be happy with what I can accomplish and stay healthy… after all if I do not stay healthy then I accomplish nothing…

That being said:

I am superbly honored and happy that I am published in the March 2010 Somerset Apprentice Magazine.

I have been creating my mixed media collage style since the fall of 2007. I have sent in a few submissions over the past few years. I had not received this piece back from the publisher for quite some time. We had moved in May and I thought perhaps it had gotten lost in the mail. When I inquired, I was told that they still had the piece and wanted to hang on to it for a bit longer.

I was ecstatic when I received word that they wanted to publish it in this edition.


Not only was the piece published, but I was asked to write the accompanying article… I am extremely happy and so grateful to be in the company of so many other fine artists…

This published piece has a message that I should keep rereading myself:


The current light in my life has been made brighter by my cancer experience. When I feel down or that I am underachieving I need to study this piece. Thank you to Jana Holstein, Managing Editor of Somerset Apprentice.

I can now check another item off of my “list”… of course my personality checks off one and adds two more, but I will have to deal with that issue in another piece of art!

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