Thursday, June 26, 2008

The New Somerset Studio is here....

I went to the mailbox yesterday and there it was. Neatly wrapped in plastic. My heart started to beat fast, I was so excited. I felt like Steve Martin in the movie "The Jerk" when he ran around saying "the new phone books are here"!!! I unwrapped the plastic, being careful not to bend the magazine. I quickly flipped through the pages looking for my entry. Picture Charlie Bucket in Charlie and the Chocolate Factory - I won the golden ticket. There it is on page 102. My artwork, published.
This is my second piece that I sent in for publishing. My first piece was rejected. I will post that one at a later date - or maybe on the Mothers with Cancer blog. But right now I am loving that this piece is having it's moment.

Thursday, June 19, 2008

"Serenity Prayer"

I took a Painting Prayer class. We painted the serenity prayer. I was familiar with the prayer, but never really thought about each individual line of the prayer. We painted this in 4 steps focusing each individual phrase:
GOD Grant me the serenity
To Accept the Things I cannot change
The Courage to Change the things I can
And the wisdom to know the difference

It is such a profound prayer... speaking of prayers - please say a few for Andrea she is a member of the Mothers with Cancer group and is dealing with the truly important issues of life.

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

Made Me Laugh!

Did you ever read something that just made you laugh? I love when I do. Recently the license plate frame that I liked the best said "Hang up and Drive", that is until today. My new favorite is "I suffer from PMS... putting up with men's s**t". I am sure that it is not new,but it just struck me so funny that I just burst out laughing!

Sunday, June 15, 2008

It's My Birthday!

During my 44th year I decided that I was not going to have any more unhappy birthdays. Well 6 weeks before my 45th birthday I was diagnosed with cancer. I was to have my third chemo treatment the day before my birthday. I thought of postponing it so I could enjoy my day, I had plans to go to Disneyland and spend the day with the kids. Then I decided that it was more important to stay on schedule and hopefully the chemicals would work and I could celebrate bigger for my 46th. So on my 45th birthday I was very tired, I had no hair and I could barely taste my ice cream cake.
But the next year (2007) was probably, no was the BEST birthday I ever had. We went to Disneyland and we had a great time. For the first time in a year we had fun and cancer was not on our minds. My son actually looked and hugged me that night like I was the Mom he remembered. This year I chose Disneyland again. I love Disney - I always say that I could live there. Now that we live so close, the kids and I go a lot. I listened to my birthday phone call and wish from Goofy and we had fun. I guess we never know when we will be celebrating our last birthday and even though we get older each year it truly is better than the alternative. I hope one of kids' memories is that their Mother loved to go to Disney with them. I know they are good memories for me.

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

I'll Stand By You....

This is my daughter singing at her End of Year Concert. I just love her voice. When she was 5 months old she chimed into the chorus of "Raindrops and Gumdrops" ( the ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah part) from Barney while we were in the car and we were amazed. 14 1/2 years later...

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

A Day Late...

I was supposed to write about the new blog that I am a part of, yesterday, but life kind of got in the way. I am a day late but the good news is the blog is still there! This is a new blog of about 16 at this point, women, Mothers, who never asked to have ALL of the qualifications needed to be a member. The qualifications are to be a Mother, and to have or had Cancer. We have many different experiences to share. We have a varying number of children of different ages. We have all had cancer. Some of us are in remission or are showing (NED) no evidence of disease, but some are fighting (METS) Metastases. It is a reality show without scripting. Please feel free to check in on Mothers with Cancer. If you learn of someone just diagnosed - please send them over. I have also added links to each woman's individual blog so please stop by - you will not be disappointed.

Saturday, June 7, 2008


Today is my daughter's 15th birthday!! She asked me to make her a collage for her present. I was going to look for a famous quote - I love quotes, but then I thought no I want it to be just for her. So many of my wishes did come true the day she was born. I think most Mother's can understand my sentiments. I had wished for a baby for so long, I had wished to be a Mom. After 6 years of infertility I really did not care if the baby was a boy or girl, but when I found out she was a girl I thought of all of the pink I could surround myself and her with. We both love pink (and lime green) by the way.
Fifteen years ago today, we really did not even know of her yet. We knew that "our birth Mother" was due but we did not find out that she was born until the 8th at 8:00 in the morning. The attorney called and said "It's a Girl!". We picked her up on the 9th and I can not believe that 15 years have gone by. She has become a beautiful young woman. She paints, creates collages and makes jewelry. She is wonderful with kids. She loves to play tennis and surf. She has the most unbelieveable singing voice - she can hit the high notes and her voice gets sweeter as she does it. I wish her only the best in life - because she has certainly given me so much happiness. So I would love to go on, but her friends are coming over and I am dropping them off at the mall. (I guess we have to wait another year or so for her to drive herself). Tonight a dinner at the restaurant of her choice and home for chocate chip cookie cake.

It's all good...

Tuesday, June 3, 2008

Signs of a New Path

The other day my daughter said "don't you just wish we could stop the world and get off for awhile?" I have wished that same thing many times. I think my time during cancer treatment did just that for me. I had to get off the Merry go Round and focus on getting myself well. During that time I really tried to do some things that I had not done in a long while - if ever. A lot of self-care and a lot of art. I am now trying to find my way after cancer treatment and I am ready to get back on the Merry go Round, while trying to remember not to go too fast. Sometimes when we try to go in a different direction or path it seems like it is just not working, but I think I am starting to see signs that just maybe it is:

The hospital where I had my treatments offers a Creative Expressions art workshop 4 times a year. We all painted wings and made one large piece titled"Free as a Bird". It is hanging up in the Cancer Center and it is now a flyer for National Cancer Survivors' Day celebrations for the Hospital. My wings are the bottom, center rainbow pair.

I have been involved with Art & Creativity for Healing since 2004, the founder, Laurie Zagon has a book coming out in the summer and my story and the impact that Art for Healing has had on me as well as a few pieces of my work will be in the book.

I have been sending some of my work to magazines and I just received notice that a piece will be published in the July/August issue of Somerset Studios.

I originally started this blog after reading Kelly Rae Roberts articles in Cloth,Paper,Scissors as a way to get my artwork "out there". I have mixed in a little of everything, because I have many interests. I have linked to many different blogs and found some pretty amazing people who have had their lives changed by cancer. I have been asked to join a new blog group of Mothers with Cancer. I am so excited to give back and help others who have not asked to join this club, but indeed are now members.

For a long time now I have prayed to God to give me guidance. Recently I have also added to that prayer, that I may actually hear what He is telling me. I think He has been telling me, but maybe I was just not listening. I believe that everything happens for a reason. One day at a time and one step at a time I will continue on this new path.....


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